Shabbat Shalom! Each week it seems to be a new start doesn't it? It's a fantastic thing being able to live in the image of the world to come.
At any rate, at the end of Torah to the max we had a discussion: Where do we go from there? We've learned all this great stuff, but is that any good if we don't do anything?
A lot of us talked about the discussions we would have with our Rabbis with our newfound knowledge and chutzpa. I thought that was a genius idea.
That is until I went to services tonight. My temple is a operatic cantorial sort of thing, not my favorite by any means. Yet, as we began the service something felt right. It was good to be home, in my home temple. Then it began. L'chu n'ran'na was not what I would have liked. And from there is became evident that this type of worship was not for me; not to say it's not for anyone, it just doesn't make me want to pray, let alone celebrate Shabbat. When no one got up or opened to the door at the end of L'cha dodi it almost felt like I was locking Shabbat out. It was a terrible image.
It has become clear that I will need a different environment to pray in. Silent pray is an impossibility in my congregation, the instructions almost counter my idea of a Reform Jewish service, the experience simply did not "work."
But somehow, having a pow wow with my Rabbi does not seem like the thing to do. These people that pray at my Shul enjoy their prayer experience I'm sure. If it wasn't meaningful to them they wouldn't return. I think that is the path I will choose. I need a new space, a new community, otherwise I simply cannot pray and have the words rise.
Where I am, I will fill that Shul with prayer. The Baal Shem Tov would not be amused.
Friday, August 17, 2007
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
1 comment:
Hello
Help me to write biographies!
you can write also a letter on personnalities and I post your letter!
shalom
jewisheritage.fr
Post a Comment